EMo! Angry!!! ARRRGHHGHHGHHHH!!!

Facebook force me to use time line..... Fine... so I wanna add a nice picture of the latest me as cover.. and I had NONE!!!!! Latest pic of me, CNY! or self shot pic that I feel my face too wide! I have no nice picture taken lately.... how sad....

T_T

I know I shouldn't keep thinking negative.. but I don't know... I keep having negative thoughts!

I just don't feel like going to ching ming in Pahang tomorrow... I wanna stay home and sleep! Stay home and do nothing..!!  can or not?

I do not want to see the same face I hate to see now. Everyday see.. Sunday also have to see... Irritating, Annoying Unreasonable 30 year old kiddo...! WTF! Got u say no I say! ARGH!!!

I wanna go away!!!!!!!!

I miss flying.... :*(

I dont miss the job.. I miss travelling... T_T

I see everybody in fb... new destination.. new activities.. I wanna join tooo.... T_T

I miss Korea... yes I do... I miss four seasons.... 

I miss flying to USA... yes.. apart from the long hours... but I miss shopping their local brands and factory outlets...

I regret not finding out that joaan, micheals and many other craft stores.. exist before I stop... or purchased some sorta craft machine then...

I jealous see ppl fly to SFO... a place I havent set foot yet..

I miss wearing my winter wear and boots...

I regret to not getting myself a Chanel bag before I stop....

I miss enjoying my LO and DO alone doing my thing... I miss pampering my own self alone... 

Enjoying high life and higher pay... traveling to different countries and cities... shop what I want, buy what I want..

Times passes by very fast when you fly too...

Pro and cons... but still.. It's better than saving up large sum of $ harder than previously and pay own ticket and cheap hotel and travel only like once a year..

Europe? probably once every 10 years??

I wish to have a chance to fly again... maybe not with KE,... but now that Im married... leaving too far from Hubby is not a nice thing....  like I wanna go SQ or Cathay.. but that means going far away for a long time w/o Hubby... dont think I can miss that...

Im 26 already... age limit coming soon... and I doubt Hubby let me fly... but I realy really miss!!

SIGH.....

I know.. emo post again.. Im emo today.... emo and angry... I dont know how to let my frustration out... how to settle things that are not all in my hand.

Once a month...

I noticed my blogging rate now is kinda once a month... well... on a positive side... better than none...

On a sad note... a bit down today when P came... I thought I was pregnant... sigh... it's like a week late.. I noticed a little spotting a few weeks back that I thought its the "implantation"... then my tummy suddenly lower bottom bloated.. I thought.................... sigh................... :'(

But then I have no sickness (thank godness) or cravings.. well... I snack most of the times in office.. Im not sure how pregnancy cravings goes.. And the bloating went off like last week.. and this morning I have some kinds of uneasiness symptoms in my tummy..... 

Already having thoughts when will be my baby's due date.. perhaps a 12.12.12 baby... :( maybe I put my hopes to high to get a dragon baby... Hubby ask me to take it slow... dont make myself stressed.. but how to not stress every month anticipating when my period will come or not??

Sigh.. I dunno la... No dragon... snake lor..

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No crafts project done so far... Im losing hope on my 2012 resolution.. but yet im still spending $$ buying scrapbooking tools to hoard.. and still wanting more.. >.< last month spend around RM170 buying something from ebay.. this month spend similar amount buy punchers and embelisments on sale in joann and s&c.. >.<

Still DREAMING to get myself a slice machine and a photo printer... like doing a BIG business whereas nothing had started! 

Horrible.. then also have the feeling to buy more stuff.. made Hubby go IOI last weekend to buy me a cotton dress and a skirt from Mango Outlet after feeling I have no new work clothes...1 skirt got an iron burnt mark not sure by me or the maid, 1 nice high waisted snake skin pattern got a tear.. (tho mended.. still feel... emmm...) 2 pants are too small for my size now... another skirt looks weird on me due cos im just too fat >.<

Wanna dress more glam to work but actually apart from entertaining myself there's no purpose cos no 1 to see or admire... wheares the other 1 only wear casual to work... but every Friday and Saturday when I make myself a casual work wear day... I spent quite a few minutes sitting on the bed looking at my wardrobe thinking what should I wear.. I have worn this, I have worn that... I just washed these, I just ironed these... that too sexy OTT for office... etc... >.<

Buy more clothes, no place to put.. fashion nowadays are all body hugging and Im not in my confidence now to wear body hugging clothes... argh... I just have lots to complain... bear with me... or click somewhere else...

Better stop here.. Taaa... 

What I've been up to...

I am very busy you know!! lol!!

Working everyday from Monday to Saturday... just thinking about ONE Sunday off day already make me sad... wonder when D day will come where TTS will be off on Saturday! SIGH..! 

I have lots of things I wanna do! And there's only ONE Sunday!! ARGH!!  

I wanna craft, I wanna sleep in, I wanna read my books, I wanna run a movie marathon... I wanna accompany Hubby, and chores to do! (thank goodness this week the maid came and iron my clothes already!) I wish Sunday has 48 hours!! ya right.. -__-

Anyway cut things short (what time is it now) express blogging!

I crocheted!!

A very very simple baby bootie! I meet Lee chin like last 2 weeks and she is due in May, I thought I'll get crochet up at least A PAIR by May... But my thread is too thin, and I think I've used a small hook... the baby bootie size is less than 3"... how baby can wear when only my two (2!) fingers can go in??!

I'll need to try again... this time with bigger hook!

Oh, side note, Daiso @ The mines selling threads and large crochet hooks.. ^^ they even have crochet doilies.. and only RM5 for 3 pcs!! *hyper* I bought some... :P

Something from the States ^^

Paper wishes having sales.. and I bought some stuffs... hehe.. I wanted to order via d middle person, but he qoute me to freaking expensive, in the end the amount I paid for international shipping is a lot cheaper than his quotes -___-

Rose ribbon

These are like USD 2.39.. after shipping also less than RM20.. I believe they are selling higher in here.. for 1 yard.. Since I never own them before... why not try?? ^^

Vine ribbon set

I couldn't find these here ( I found similar, but ugly) and they are having sale for a set.. I bought them to try.. I used to look for them frantically last time when I first saw them online and on some other ppl's lo and it was kinda expensive... and knowing how I hoard things even if I purchased them I wouldn't use them.. so I actually bought a Martha Stewart vine leaves puncher instead to replace.. haha.. cos I can always buy papers and re-punch them! But since they have sales.. I couldn't missed it right?

I was just putting them back to my "treasure box" and I found pics from Tioman (yes.. still have 2 hubby pics) and I already have a little idea to use these.. I hope I can execute my project quick enough before its abandoned... :/ Now.. looking for ideas to do a jungle lo.. ^^

Yellow mini paper sunflower

These are like 49cents! Why not?? I kinda remember I have bought this before.. but I couldn't find it now.. OR maybe I wanted to get them last time.. oh well, if I really did bought this before.. mean I have more to use.. *light bulb!* hehehe...

Far east clear stamps

Well this is what I'm excited about! Oriental themed stamps! Gonna make CNY cards next year!! never seen this in KL before.. so hyper!

Someone make me do Christmas card first ok.. I still "owe" ppl christmas cards... lol

dazzles

This is my first time purchasing Dazzles... after seeing many times how they demo it.. will try them soon.. hmm.. perhaps those ferns is just right for my jungle theme? :)

I bought this ruler ribbon from TH as well.. just missed taking its pic I guess.. lazy to snap, load and post ady.. late.. hmm.. anyway.. its really cool.. vintage feel.. and on sale too.. so... yeap! I wanted to get that hanger paper clip TH have, but then on second thought I thought I wanna try curl a normal paper clip and see how it goes.. I did it and threw it somewhere in the beads box.. not that nice.. but I guess a few more to practice and it'll be fine... hehe..

Ok.. wasted my time already and its 1.24am now.. plan to watch a movie but my eyes are too tired to stay open.. nitey..

I'm Back... again...

... and I hope my mojo to blog is back too.. :P 

As you know.. I'm getting lazier in taking pictures... 

Anyway... first thing first.... HappY CNY 2012!! ^^ 

This is my 2nd year to celebrate with Hubby... and as the Lee tradition goes... first day is spent in Genting Highlands... Bai nian with Uncle Lim and get BIG angpauss... hehehe..

My outfit on first day.. ^^

I posted this to FB and someone commented I looked like chio tai tai (stylish rich married woman) wtf..

Happy that I can still fit into the cheongsam.. Mummy bought it for me in our Melaka trip in 2010 (she was looking for a Cheongsam to wear for my wedding dinner, and I also wanted a cheongsam.. it was on a sale rack and it fits me)... the cropped tweed jacket? RM65 from times square.. hehe.. Nowadays I somehow becoming more and more "value-considered" when shopping for clothes.. maybe I have had enough during my flying years... maybe I've becoming cheapo... maybe branded clothings are a bit over the top with their prices nowadays... maybe I have earn lesser now... maybe...... argh.. when I wanna get a branded top from a branded shop.. I'll always think there are always look-a-like/inspired one selling somewhere out there.. and I'll rather spend that RM200 to buy that branded top and use it to buy a few more inspired.. Im cheapo like that nowadays.. hehe ^^

Ok. By the time I've done blogging this CNY is over... XP

What's next is an update of my work life... Hubby and his bro have join ventured and open a handphone accessories supplies in Seri Kembangan... and my job is a Admin cum HR cum counter girl.. lol.. ok I mostly do everything.. except holding the $ and accounts.. as I know nothing about accounts.. >.< but.... Im learning as much as I could... *gulp*

Mens hanging up the signboard a day before soft opening on 1st Dec 2011

I designed the signboard!!  ^^ *proud wtf* but then Hubby insist that he THOUGHT about the logo.. I DREW the signboard... -_____-"

fine... $&%^(#*@!

Anyway.. I have to be more hardworking now that I partly owns this business.. XP  working days are Mon-Sat, 9.30am-6pm... only a Sunday off.. Ok its not as bad as working for that 2 months in De H*** Biz.. I get Sundays off..=P

Oh, bout that De H*** Biz... its a long story.. but let me summ it up:

2 months | "spy" | learning how people works in this industry | long hours | 1 day off a week on weekday | far | low pay | boring |  I quit.... the end.. 

LOL

Ok, I'm blocked..  dont know what to write summore.. I guess Im ending this here today...

Oh, btw, I'm missing on crafting... Resolutions 2012: I want to make myself craft something each day.. perhaps starting to crochet back is a good start... and I aim to only crochet flowers/butterflies...and collect them in a jar.. and they will be my embelishments in my future scrapbooking... Otherwise.. I feel like I'm wasting my $ buying SO MANY craft supplies but yet unused.. =/

Then slowly go up to scrapbooking.. I am still aiming to FINISH at least 20 more A4 sizes layouts before venturing to 12x12...

Or if I cant make it.. I'll continue to hons my crochet skill.. perhaps start practising with baby booties.. hats.. everything??

Ok I promose you 'al only 1 resolution first.. keeping it up needs strength!!

I'll post photo once I've done a flower. or a butterfly.. ok?

Now I gotta go.. laundry's done, and I wanna watch my drama and do manicure ^^ taa!!
 

I quit...

Yes.. I tendered my resignation letter.. Well.. Its not that I can't cope in that company... I just couldnt stand their culture there... As I have so far managed to score my target and have my outlets all pass 100%... except this month's Jusco BH outlet.. -__-.. (ok if u wanna count in my June's Lot10 outlet.. I have nothing to say..but I was new...) I even reach a 120CTR(customer turn-up rate) this month whereas my target is 90... ^_^  So... my reason of resigning?

1) I truly dislike that we in this dept. have to work 10-7pm on a Saturday.

2) There is no OT pay for working that long hours. My job description in contract is working hours 9-6pm or 11-8pm. Yet if you have morning shifts and leave on time, you get the "roll-eye" stare.. leave late, there is also no goodbyes from that manager who roll eyed you..

3) Cold calling - its fine... except I cant stand to lie just to make people come.. whatever the promo ends this week is fake. As long as there is respond to that promotion, the promo goes on...

4) Customers lie too. They just sounds like really interested to come for an appointment but then did not turn up, saying forgotten, emergency, lazy, busy, turn off hp, no answer... etc.. sick of it

5) Managerial position people are really ass-holes..(I have stories in that too) but then.. if they are not assholes, they won't be sitting there to command you today.. ;)

6) HQ consultant have to make minimum 70 cold calls a day. (Outlet 30 per day per person) Raya season: HQ 100, Outlet 60... crazy.. in 70 cold calls I made, 10 gets thru and listens to you, 2 fix an appointment, the rest would be no answer, network message, voice mail, hang up, pick up silent. You are lucky to not get scolded... In that 2 appointments you make, probably that 2 person will not even turn up or answer your call anymore after that.. or they keep postpone and refix that bloody appointment.

7) Due to Raya season, response is really low, due to a) people need to spend $ on celebrations  b) all balik kampung or puasa reasons.. So what they do when follow ups have all been called thru?(1 outlet have 3 outlet consultants, 1 HQ consultant.. and if that outlet couldn't achive their target, temp staff are being hired to back up. 1 old outlet may have 2000+ old datas. 4 consultants to make 250 calls a day, in less than a month, all datas have be called and recalled, making them "trash data".) Sometimes I do pity those people who sms in, as they will be bothered and annoyed for 1 whole year or more, unless they come for that appointment. Or, change numbers... After they come for appointment, they also get calls from skin consultants for that regular appointments... -___-

8)There is this system they created where all datas are only 1 years old, older than that, they will be exported out from system. When response is not enough, and target is not reached, system data have been "trashed", they exported some 2-3years ago numbers for us to call. Name them archived data. Now this is worse. in 100 calls I made, I get ZERO appointments.. but then my follow up calls are really high :)

9) Company's dirty culture. To hit 7million sales per month, those consultant made all kinds of dirty tricks to get $ from you; to hit sales target or "to close a sales" consultant must collect a minimum RM500 from you no matter what trick they use. So no matter how sincere I ask people to come for appointment, I promised them free first facial, next thing I get complains that to get that "free facial" they have to pay RM500 to be member; 1 bloody eye treatment cost RM430? RM9000 for 10 collagen-and-i-don't-know-what-else-in-it treatment?? Riddiculous! If you are just that strong and do not want to sign, you get "threaten" by bigger size consultants, then 2 more will come in, then later another manager will come in and ask rudely.. some said they lock the door and not let you out unless you pay some "deposit" Or said their package is today only offer and next time come back no more such offer, just to get you pay... sigh!

I could say I myself was a victim too... I went for a first trial in LWM for like RM20 6-7 years ago and the next thing I know after treatment I was being brain washed for package. When I couldn't afford, they asked for my atm card and start poking them into the machine and "extract" my savings out. Thank godness I was poor student and couldnt pay full amount! Till today I have RM1000 inside and still unused 8 treatments!! >(

NewsFLash! The boss n wife took a trip with a few top manegers/directors to Milan recently and the wife had spent SGD100000 (or was is 500000??) for branded bags! How we work our ass off and how lavishly they spent! Woohoo!

I would be really stupid for not leaving... yes unless my face is that damn thick!

Weekend~

I watched all the season finale of my favourite American dramas on Saturday... =D  (GG, OTH, DH... TVD ady watch) yeah I know I am so late to catch up but yeah I was that busy.... kinda...

I went back to Seremban finally, after near 2 months. Yes Seremban is near Kajang, but this is the only weekend I get to have Saturday and Sunday off.. ;) or just tad too lazy to go back cos I rather spend my only Sunday chillax... =P

Though I did not achive a 40 visits this 1-10th (some extra $ incentive if I do) but I kinda got no more mojo when I know the yellow rally will affect everywhere... :(

Yet this 2 days was just too short and not enough for me to start a layout scrapbooking or a little bit of knitting, I wanted to knit my own sun hat and some baby booties for Soo's new born baby girl~ can't wait for her to stop by KL and meet her... I hope...

Also didn't have the "time" to edit my Macau-Zhuhai-Shenzhen pictures.. (mostly Macau, cos I stoped taking pictures in mainland due to excessive window shopping and shopping =P

Mr Hubby went pms just now for I did my laundry late at night and ask him to help me to hang it up... He don't get it why I love doing laundry at night.. But I have my reason... the sun here is limited due to condo blocks so if I do my laundry early morning Im afraid it won't be dry enough by evening.... So doing laundry at night, the clothes are like 40% drier by morning... at least I done my laundry at night I don't have to wake up earlier to do it in the morning = more sleep...

And Hubby was like "why can't you do it in the weekend??" like hello, I have to work on Saturdays, and if Sunday I would love to got some sleep in than stressing to wake up by the alarm just to do laundry.. And these 2 days weather was a bit cookoo... I wanted to wash the bedsheets.. It's already 2 months and its starting to have.. "nice" smells.. =(  And I just can't only do laundrys on weekends? I might have to clean the room, do ironing (though thank goodness I din't have to this weekend) Not that I have maid to help me... >( and not that YOU will help... >( >( Mr.Un-appreciate!!

Anyway.. enough of complains about Mr Hubby.. time to sleep.. hope to be able to leave office early the whole next week and start editing picture to blog and post.. T__T

3rd day @ work

I would say I hate cold callings... Perhaps I hate ppl who cold calls me, or the feeling of being rejected... But once I got hold to it.. I mean the trick and tips of convincing ppl to come to the outlets (yea I get paid if someone I called actually comes to a fixed appointement) its kinda ok..

Been starting to cold calls since yesterday morning.. was really hard to do at first, especially I was given old contacts to follow up... its kinda a back up way for the monthly target... cos I am still new.. these are just for "practice".. but this morning, a colleague told me I actually made 50 calls, I was surprised! I did that?? LOL!!

And when I found out 3 of ppl I called and receive call actually came up for that appointment, I was estatic! Until the meeting today (I was in office till 8.30pm for that meeting, my parking $ today was RM12!!).. I got a little stressed when they was like saying "wow! three days here got 3 ppl ady!" Its like they are expecting me to do better than today! What if tomorrow I dont get that much.. its just luck ya know..

I have to practise 1 thing for sure, to pick up calls even before they ring.. cos the other 2 in my group is like seniors.. they are really quick! I havent even identify which number is ringing and they already pick them up! Cos till now I am only giving follow up calls, and not fresh data, while they have it.. so they totally have better $ that me...

Oh well im new I know.. I just wanna rant.. I know I'll soon have those data (like next mth they said) and I'll have to be fully responsible to get target, no help from the other 2 seniors.. now, I shall make myself enjoy "backing up" hmmm..

There are fun and not fun calling.. fun when funny things ppl said to give reasons to not come.. and not fun when ppl actually hang up or get angry and so on..... like eg, today a colleague fixed an appointment for this aunty to go in lot10 at 5pm. Aunty said will ask husband to fetch her. And do call her back to remind her. So when colleague finally manage to call her after many failed attempts of unanswered call, she ask if aunty still wanna go, but aunty's son picked up the phone. said mom went out with dad..

Ask if his mum coming to lot 10, he said no, they are not coming.. then he was stammering unsure how to respond to us... and said want to let her sis to talk to us.. then hang up.

Of course.. my senior-very-pro-colleague called back. this time Im not sure who answered.. but said they are not coming, wanna change the coupon amount she bought to product (which was impossible to change names or even products in this promo) and funny was, aunty "went out".. but he did not put us on hold and said "MA! They said cannot change ppl or exchange for products"

LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL!!!

anyway... lesson 1: Do not simply sms for more info, unless you are interested to do so, else you get calls every month persuading you to go their outlet or buy their packages...

First day @ work... Layout #8th

Yawn!! First day at work was soooooo boring!! Well.. cos I am new, and they haven't set up the system for me yet! And looks like people are not gonna teach me everything.. I'll have to ask and wait.. if not.. they just do their stuff.. I guess.. But I cant judge someone so soon right.. just wait and see...

Well case point was at about 4pm++ and I already had nothing else to do after reading and re-reading the guidelines and info they printed for me, so I finally open my mouth and ask how can I do some calls, and THEN, only somebadee taught me how to open the data.. but wthell! I dont have those file sharing folder... -__- So called the technician again to enquire.. and they said they will check for me.. and there I am again trying to spend off my time till 6pm.. -_______-" I even played games.. freaking boring and sleepy nothing to do!!

Anyway.. as promised.. 1 last layout before I start work... I finished this last night.. Im guessing I'm couldn't/wouldn't have time to scrap.. I do hope I have time.. You know my Tioman pics still have 3-4 to go... Ady thought of some layout.. but I guess I'll keep it for a free weekend.. I dont think I can do it by this weekend, cos I guess I have to work on saturday and sunday its laundry and ironing time.. TT___TT




No flowers, no hearts... =P

 I squeeze my brain juice out to not add in flowers and hearts.. lol.. I only thought bout the buttons last minute and after some trial arrangements.. I came out with this.. =P I bought this pack of vintage inspired buttons from Targets also last time, together with those chipboard flowers.. but never used them yet... till now.. LOL..



I drew broken white lines on the paper..


Looks like stitches isnt it? hehehe.. the blue is too plain without some borders.. and it just matches the buttons... hehehehe... I even drew on the boats.. forgot to take their picca.. =P yeah.. not original.. idea copied.. but atleast I dont have to wait for a future home to bring my sewing machine over to finally use the idea! That'll gonna be a few years wait and these trends might just be outdated!!  =P

Stickers from momoyo...

Well.. gotta go zzz now... have to wake up at 6.30am! TT__TT

1000th day... =)

Ok.. might be silly for you... but just a reason to eat out... heheh...

I just have to keep a copy of this... hehehe...

Went to have lobster @ Lobster man SS2... Pics later.. haven't "extract" out from iPhone.. =)

Ok, maybe I should celebrate our next 2000th day.. hehehehe.....

I was asking Hubby, which anniversaries we should celebrate? Our official dating day? 10.10.10? or August 5th? Or all three? Then Hubby said why don't we also celebrate the date we meet, the 1001th day, the 1111th day....etc? lol!!